Broadway 星／主役にする Sara Gettelfinger has opened up about how she 急落（する），激減（する）d into a 麻薬 and alcohol-燃料d spiral after 存在 propelled into the スポットライト - before developing a 厳しい 賭事ing 中毒 while on 医薬 that left her unable to 支配（する）／統制する her impulses.?
Sara, 47, made her Broadway debut in the show?Seussical in 2000, and after that, she became a 大規模な theater 星／主役にする, 上陸 a slew of 役割s in big plays throughout the 早期に 2000s.
But as she rose to the 最高の，を越す, she began partying ひどく to 戦闘 her 猛烈な／残忍な insecurities.
She has now spoken out about how she lived a '二塁打 life,' dazzling audiences but '悪化するing' behind-the-scenes as she continuously questioned whether or not she was good enough and chased the high of 存在 on 行う／開催する／段階 even when she was off it.
Broadway st ar Sara Gettelfinger has opened up about how she 急落（する），激減（する）d into a 麻薬 and alcohol-燃料d downward spiral after 存在 propelled into the スポットライト
Sara, 47, made her Broadway debut in the show Seussical in 2000 (seen), and after that, she became a 大規模な theater 星／主役にする, 上陸 a slew of 役割s in big plays throughout the 早期に 2000s
But as she rose to the 最高の，を越す, she began partying ひどく to 戦闘 her 猛烈な／残忍な insecurities. She's seen in 2012
'I always felt unsettled in my work, even though I was getting wonderful feedback and getting more 適切な時期s,' she explained to Broadway.com recently.
'My 信用／信任 in my work always （機の）カム from an outside source. You're always rewinding the tape [after the show], like, "How was it? What did they think? What did I do? How did it go?"
'Just that constant chasing of validation from anywhere other than your inner knowledge or strength.'
During the 2000s, Sara starred in a slew of Broadway plays 含む Anything Goes,?The Boys from Syracuse, Nine, Dirty Rotten Scoundrels, and 101 Dalmatians Musical.
But all the while, she began 'partying' 過度に, which she explained was a big part of the 'lifestyle of 存在 a performer.'?
'You finish the show and then you go out,' she explained. 'You have all this energy and we usually went to a restaurant or a 妨げる／法廷，弁護士業 first, and then you went to the after party, and then the after-after party.?
'We had plenty of time to sleep until four o'clock the next day and have a bagel and some orange Gatorade and rinse and repeat. And that worked for a very long time.'
But things （機の）カム to a 長，率いる when she went on the Broadway 国家の 小旅行する for The Addams Family in 2011, during which she played Morticia Addams.?
She has now spoken out about how she lived a '二塁打 life,' dazzling audiences but '悪化するing' behind-the-scenes as she questioned whether or not she was good enough
'I always felt unsettled in my work, even though I was getting wonderful feedback,' she explained to Broadway.com. 'It was that constant chasing of validation'
Sara joined Broadway 国家の 小旅行する for The Addams Family in 2011, during which she played Morticia Addams (seen), but she said she?was '定期的に using 麻薬s and alcohol'
She explained that she was '定期的に using 麻薬s and alcohol' by that time, and that her 'major demon was コカイン.'
She said she felt like the 麻薬 was giving her '超大国s' and like she 'could do anything,' but in reality she was '衝突，墜落ing and 燃やすing big time.'
After it （機の）カム to an end in 2012, she said she was 'in the worst physical and mental 形態／調整' that she had 'ever been in' and had so much 'paranoia' that she いつかs 'wasn't able to leave her house' or 'take care of basic things.' She's seen in 2013
'I?was not in a good place when I 調書をとる／予約するd that show,' she 株d. 'It was the end the road. When I say I はうd over the finish line of that 小旅行する, I am not 誇張するing.'?
After it （機の）カム to an end in 2012, she said she was 'in the worst physical and mental 形態／調整' that she had 'ever been in.'
She 解任するd 苦しむing from 'panic attacks' and having so much 'paranoia' that she いつかs 'wasn't able to leave her house' or 'take care of basic things.'?
In 2013, she said she 'waved the white 旗' and 長，率いるd home to where she grew up in Louisiana, Kentucky, so she could go to rehab.
But after getting clean, Sara said she soon developed a 猛烈な／残忍な 賭事ing 中毒 that only made things worse.
She even got 逮捕（する）d for 窃盗 in 2015, and was given three years 保護監察, after which she moved into a sober living home.
But she 解任するd feeling lost because she was 'estranged from her family' and 'couldn't 信用 herself' - and she 最終的に 試みる／企てるd to end her life.
'I could not fathom how, at two years clean, I had somehow sought this new activity out. I [felt like] I was hell bent on 破壊 and anyone who （機の）カム 近づく me was at 危険,' she continued.
In 2013, she said she 'waved the white 旗' and 長，率いるd home to where she grew up in Louisiana, Kentucky, so she could go to rehab. She's seen in 2013
After getting clean, Sara said she developed a 猛烈な／残忍な 賭事ing 中毒 that only made things worse - but she later learned a 麻薬 she was taking had 衝撃d her 'impulse 支配（する）／統制する'
'I thought, "I'm just a monster, it doesn't 事柄 what I give up, I'm gonna find something else to be （麻薬）常用者d to."
'I reached the point of, "You know what??If this is all that's left for me, I don't even wanna be here."'
But everything changed for Sara when she discovered an 広告 on TV from a 法律 会社／堅い asking people who were on a 確かな 医薬 and struggling with 賭事ing 中毒 to give them a call.
She was 定める／命ずるd the 麻薬 as part of her 回復, and soon started 研究ing it - and discovered that it was linked to problems with 'impulse 支配（する）／統制する.'
'This particular 麻薬 I was put on had 非常に／多数の 熟考する／考慮するs 事例／患者s all over the world th at were 原因（となる）ing this same type of compulsion in people,' she explained.
'Finding out that there was a 推論する／理由 for it doesn't excuse it, but it at least gave me a why.'
She got off the 麻薬 and within three weeks, she said it was 'like a （一定の）期間 was broken.'?
She said that she could 'enjoy the 利益s of sobriety' for the first time, and that it was like a 'new 賃貸し（する） on life.'?
'Now （機の）カム the 仕事 of 再構築するing. But the first step was just realizing very 簡単に, "I'm not a monster. I am an （麻薬）常用者, and I have done terrible, hurtful things, but I am not 宣告，判決d to this affliction for the 残り／休憩（する） of my life," 追加するd the actress.
In 2017, she started dating her former childhood classmate Eric Pop, and they married in 2020; she is now the step-mother to his two kids.
In 2017, she started dating her former childhood classmate Eric Pop, and the y married in 2020; she is now the step-mother to his two kids
She landed a 職業 teaching music to preschoolers, but when she was asked to 参加する in a Zoom 再会 with the Seussical cast in 2020, it made her 行方不明になる her old life in the スポットライト
Earlier this year, Sara, now 11 years sober, 公式に returned to the Broadway 行う／開催する／段階 for the first time in over a １０年間 when she joined the cast of the new musical Water for Elephants
She then landed a 職業 teaching music to preschoolers, but when she was asked to 参加する in a Zoom 再会 with the?Seussical cast in 2020, it made her 行方不明になる her old life in the スポットライト.
In 2021, the 星／主役にするs teamed up for a special 業績／成果 at 54 Below in New York City, and 存在 on 行う／開催する／段階 again was indescribable.?
'The 返答 was 圧倒的な,' she 解任するd. 'And after that, we were walking 支援する to the hotel and my husband said, "I don't care what we have to do, I don't care what it takes, but you are not done."?
'He made me 約束 that I would reach out to my [past] スパイ／執行官 who I hadn't spoken to in 10 years.'?
Earlier this year, Sara 公式に returned to the Broadway 行う／開催する／段階 for the first time in over a １０年間 when she joined the cast of the new musical Water for Elephants.
While chatting with Broadway.com, she 述べるd coming 支援する as?'an incredible start to a second 一時期／支部' of her life.
'It is unbelievable, it's surreal,' she 噴出するd.?'I am 支援する where I feel at home and where I belong.'
Now 11 years sober, she hopes that 株ing her 旅行 will help others who may be struggling.
'The number one thing that I want people to take from my story is, 特に at a t ime?when so many people have so many struggles,?there is always hope,' she 結論するd.
'A 再構築するing begins in 存在 勇敢に立ち向かう enough to be honest,?存在 勇敢に立ち向かう enough to 収容する／認める what I am doing is not serving me,?what I am doing is 傷つけるing others.
'I know it sounds overdramatic but as long as you are breathing,?there is a way to do something different and better.'
