90210 星／主役にする AnnaLynne McCord 明らかにする／漏らすs how 'ferociously strong' ex-boyfriend Dominic Purcell helped her 取り組む 信用 問題／発行するs from childhood 性の 乱用 - as she gets very candid about their '爆発性の sex' and BDSM

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Former 90210 星／主役にする AnnaLynne McCord says that her on-again, off-again boyfriend?Dominic Purcell was the first person to break through the 塀で囲むs she'd put up, 述べるing the 刑務所，拘置所 Break 星／主役にする as a 'very, very ferociously strong man' who was her 'dom' when she got into BDSM ― with the pair enjoying '爆発性の' sex.?

予定 to a history of 性の 乱用 and 外傷／ショック, AnnaLynne, 33, said that for a long time, she put up a 'facade' and a 'mask,' and she was so 決定するd to keep her privacy that she even had her own sisters 調印する 非，不，無-公表，暴露 協定s.

But she 信用d Dominic, 51, whom she has been dating on and off since 2011, and 述べるd in a new interview with the?性の health 壇・綱領・公約 Giddy's 明らかにする series?how the pair connected.

'He changed everything,' she said. 'Dom created space for me, but he called me the f**k out. He did not take bull***t. And that's why I 信用d him.'

Good guy: Former 90210 星／主役にする AnnaLynne McCord says that her on-again, off-again boyfriend Dominic Purcell was the first person to break through the 塀で囲むs she'd put up

Candid: She 述べるd the 刑務所，拘置所 Break 星／主役にする as a ' very, very ferociously strong man' who was her 'dom' when she got into BDSM ― with the pair enjoying '爆発性の' sex

AnnaLynne and Dominic first got together in July 2011, when she was 23 and he was 41. They 分裂（する） in December 2014, renkindled their romance in 2016, and 分裂（する） ag ain in? January 2018.?

Though they 論証するd some PDA in September of 2020, AnnaLynne says they are no longer together ― but he is still やめる special to her.???

'There are many 推論する／理由s why that man will be my forever person. He is staying in my house 権利 now. We're not together, but we're family,' she said.

AnnaLynne said Dominic knew about her mental illness and 性の 外傷／ショック, and the former couple seemed to have those things in ありふれた.

'A lot of times, we attract what we are, 特に if you 港／避難所't realized your 影をつくる／尾行する, what's underneath the surface ― and I had realized 絶対 f***ng nothing,' she said.?

'He was a mirror 支援する to me. So many of the things that happened to him, different 見解／翻訳／版s of the same thing happened to me, and 副／悪徳行為 versa,' she went on, 追加するing that 'he went through a lot when he was a kid.'

'I 信用d no masculine energies, I 信用d no men, because I 人物／姿／数字d, I'm gonna 押し進める every f***ing button that you have, and if you 洞穴, I can't 信用 you.

'And there was a 性の that was underlying and 押し進めるing us, and we had 爆発性の sex,' she 追加するd.

History:?AnnaLynne and Dominic first got togerther in July 2011, when she was 23 and he was 41. They are 現在／一般に not dating but still の近くに

She said that it was with Dominic that she started 調査するing BDSM, which was something she used to 打ち勝つ he r numbness. 'And there was a 性の that was underlying and 押し進めるing us, and we had 爆発性の sex,' she 追加するd

She said that it was with Dominic that she started 調査するing BDSM, which was something she used to 打ち勝つ her numbness.??

'I literally went into bondage, BDSM,? because I couldn't feel anything. And Dom and I had this 関係 that was very ― Dom was my dom,' she said with a laugh.

AnnaLynne has 以前 spoken about how she went both 肉体的に and emotionally numb to を取り引きする her past 外傷／ショック.?

'I had such 厳しい 性の 乱用 at such a young age that my 団体／死体 decided, "This is 危険な for you to feel." So I was 完全に numb,' she told Giddy.

'One of the hallmarks of 外傷／ショック in relation to memory is that you don't 蓄える／店 the memories oftentimes. So you have explicit memories, which are とじ込み／提出する-folder, [like] my birthday in 2010 when I jumped off the slide and broke my 膝. That memory is 蓄える／店d forever, a 外傷／ショック you seared in your brain.

'And then there's 外傷／ショック that your brain says, "No. This is too much. We're gonna not do this memory. This is 最高の ew."?

'So those memories are implicit memories. I 述べる them as a feather floating around a room, and when you're 誘発する／引き起こすd, someone turns on a vacuum. And the feather gets sucked up into the vacuum. You don't know where you are in time and space, and it's just happening now and it's 十分な on.?

'I literally went into bondage, BDSM, because I couldn't feel anything. And Dom and I had this 関係 that was very ― Dom was my dom,' she said with a laugh

' I had such 厳しい 性の 乱用 at such a young age that my 団体／死体 decided, "This is 危険な for you to feel." So I was 完全に numb,' she told Giddy

'So that was my experience. I was going through 厳しい panic attacks. 結局, I started to を受ける PTSD 治療,' she said.?< /p>

AnnaLynne has been remarkably candid about her experiences, but 認める that she didn't mean to 公然と 株 hers when she did.??

'When I first told my story, I was dragged up on 行う／開催する／段階 during an event,' she said. 'I was thrown out on 行う／開催する／段階 like a deer in headlights.?

'Everything's been said, everything's been done. I didn't know what to do, so I said, "You've heard all the stories from the 生存者s and the 創立者, but you don't know the story of one girl." And then I thought, "Oh, why did I say that? That was stupid! There's a thousand people here!"

'So, that's how my story （機の）カム out. Cosmopolitan magazine was in the audience and they reached out to my team to do a story about what happened to me.

'When I was 19, I was sexually 強襲，強姦d by a "friend" who was 衝突，墜落ing at my home,' she recounted. 'I woke up and he was inside me, and I froze. My whole 団体／死体 shut 負かす／撃墜する and I didn't know what to do. Then I 非難するd myself because I didn't fight 支援する―so is that really 強姦? It was just all these questions in my mind.

'I didn't know how to を取り引きする these thoughts so I just said, "I'm gonna go to work and pretend like this is not happening."

'When I first told my story, I was dragged up on 行う／開催する／段階 during an event,' she said. 'I was thrown out on 行う／開催する／段階 like a deer in headlights' (pictured August 28)

'I literally had my own sisters 調印する NDAs. I was terrified of my life story getting out,' she 認める (pictured August 28)

'Work is an 中毒, too: at 90 hours a week working, getting on a red-注目する，もくろむ [flight], going to all these other gigs that I would have scheduled so that I never had a moment of stillness where I had to 直面する my life.

'So, all that happened, and as a result, I began this 旅行 に向かって 開いていること／寛大 about my life.?

'I had been the 完全にする opposite. Everything was a facade, everything was a しん気楼, a mask. I would panic. I literally had my own sisters 調印する NDAs. I was terrified of my life story getting out,' she 認める.

Now, she 強調する／ストレスs the importance of speaking 率直に.?

'If?we hope to do anything in this field to change it, we have to talk about things. Because silence was the modus operandi of the past,' she said.

The actress has spoken out in 非常に／多数の interviews about her 外傷／ショック in the past couple of years.?

Speaking on an episode of the Call Her Daddy?podcast in August, she recounted how the 'level of 拷問' she underwent was so terrible that she 最終的に?'just stopped feeling 苦痛' ― so as an adult, she 実験d with cutting and BDSM and 収容する／認めるs, 'I was so abusive to myself.'

開始 up:?The actress has spoken out in 非常に／多数の interviews about her 外傷／ショック in the past couple of years

'The level of 拷問 that I went through as a child that I now remember was so horrific that my brain said ... we're gonna shut off feeling,' she said. 'I just stopped feeling 苦痛'

AnnaLynne said she grew up moving around from trailer park to trailer park with her mother and sisters.

'We packed that trailer up and we rolled it 負かす／撃墜する the freeway,' she told host Alex Cooper.

It was during that time that she was 乱用d, though she had no memory of it until she was 31 years old.?

At 15, she left home and began working as a model, and 解任するs turning herself off to any 深い human 関係.

'I did not have time for feelings. Those were things that we did not do... I did not believe in 関係s. You make your 示す on the world, that's what you're here for. If you like a dude, 冷静な／正味の, but make that a 最高の lowkey thing,' she said.??

She struggled with 不景気 and 苦悩, 結局 turning to self-harmin g like cutting herself, explaining: 'The self 害（を与える）ing started just because I couldn't feel anything.'

She also entered into a 'very 性の' 関係 with a man that 伴う／関わるd lots of BDSM.?

Flashback: AnnaLynne, pictured with her mother, only remembered much of her childhood 乱用 a few years ago

'You are not 多重の personalities when you experience DID. You are fragmented 見解／翻訳／版s of yourself,' she explained?

'I was 開始 up Pandora's box sexually without consciously knowing why I might like these things, why they might turn me on the way they did,' she said. 'Because our beautiful brains that put 苦痛 and 楽しみ together to try to help us, ended up keeping me in a 団体／死体 that would go on to 乱用 herself for a very long time.??

'A big part of BDSM for me was just trying to feel anything in my 団体／死体 at all,' she 認める.

'The level of 拷問 that I went through as a child that I now remember was so horrific that my brain said no, she can't feel, so we're gonna shut off feeling.

'I just stopped feeling 苦痛,' she said. 'People laugh and say, "Oh, I have a high 寛容 for 苦痛," you should ask yourself why. Because that's not a good thing. You should ask yourself why. We have 苦痛 for a 推論する／理由, it's to let us know something's wrong.?And you don't 勝利，勝つ awards for having a high 寛容 for 苦痛. That's unkind to your 団体／死体.'

Even as she rose to fame on 90210, she was unknowingly struggling with?dissociative 身元 disorder, or DID, which meant there were 多重の 見解／翻訳／版s of herself that would come out in さまざまな 状況／情勢s.

'You are not 多重の personalities when you experience DID. You are fragmented 見解／翻訳／版s of yourself,' she explained.?'The 推論する／理由 that the brain 分裂（する）s in this regard, it's always a 保護の 機械装置.'

She 述べるd 苦しむing from 厳しいd 不景気, having '灯火管制／停電 panic attacks where I was losing time'

For example, she went on, 'If I'm on a red carpet, I have to say everything just 権利...?But my nervous system was so 圧倒するd by people, humans around me ... so I just felt really comfortable in my 団体／死体.'

She would go on （空）自動操縦装置, and suddenly it would be hours later and she would be at home.?

'I wouldn't fully 黒人／ボイコット out,' she said. 'I could remember things, but my life in a lot of ways was a blur.'

A 見解／翻訳／版 of herself she calls 'Little Anna' ― who 雇うd baby talk ― would mostly come out when she was 取引，協定ing with men, or if she had to 表明する a need for something.??

'I had this 機械装置 with men where I thought I had to be really small. And it wasn't a conscious thought. Bad things happened if I wasn't a good little girl, who was the special girl, who did the things that she was supposed to do,' she explained.

'I didn't know why I had to just give my 団体／死体 to people and I didn't realize that I was doing it because I was hoping that I'd get some love 支援する. And I was so desperate to be loved because I was so alone and had been so alone for so long,' she 追加するd.

There was also a 13-year-old 見解／翻訳／版 of herself, whom she has 以前 述べるd as?'balls to the 塀で囲む, middle fingers to the sky, anarchist from hell who will を刺す you with the spike （犯罪の）一味 that she wears, and you’ll like it.'

'I was ice 冷淡な and I could be a real c**t,' she said on Call Her Daddy.

Candid: AnnaLynne has 株d 詳細（に述べる）s of her 旅行 toward 傷をいやす／和解させるing?

'[That 見解／翻訳／版 of myself] had enough and she became the thing that terrified her. I became a いじめ（る）, I could be very emotionally, psychologically abusive... I would go into an alter that was just ice 冷淡な and impossible to get through to.

'And I thank her now, I have so much 感謝 to her,' she 追加するd, 説 it was this 堅い personality that saved her.

It was while visiting Cambodia on volunteer trips that she realized she might need some help.?

'I realized from former slaves how enslaved I was. I was a total 囚人 to my mind. I was so rigid, I had all these 基準s of perfection, I was so abusive to myself,' she said.

She was 苦しむing from 厳しいd 不景気 at the time, having '灯火管制／停電 panic attacks where I was losing time.'

She also realized that it might not be 承認する that her 脚s would go?完全に numb when she would sleep with a man.

So she started seeing a doctor who 調査するd her repressed memories with her. の中で the 策略 they used was EMDR, or 注目する，もくろむ movement desensitization and 再生するing, the same practice Prince Harry 論証するd in the Apple TV+ series The Me You Can't See.'

'I realized from former slaves how enslaved I was. I was a total 囚人 to my mind. I was so rigid, I had all these 基準s of perfection, I was so abusive to myself,' she said?

On August 16, 2018, everything about her childhood 乱用 started coming 支援する to her.?

'The memories of a 外傷／ショック 生存者 are fragmented. They come in pieces, they come in waves, they come in impressions, they come in sounds, they come in smells, they come in all of this different imagery, whatever. There are no two experiences alike,' she said.?

AnnaLynne has 株d few 明確な／細部s about what she 耐えるd, but 示すd in the podcast that she was choked with a rope during this time.

She also said that said her mom had had no idea what was going on, but has since been 広大な／多数の／重要な about helping her.

In April, AnnaLynne first spoke 率直に about how her 外傷／ショック has continued to 衝撃 her, divulging her 戦う／戦い with DID,?which was 以前は known as 多重の personality disorder.?

Dissociative 身元 disorder (DID) is ch aracterized by 補欠／交替の／交替するing between 多重の 身元s, によれば the?国家の 同盟 on Mental Illness (NAMI).?

A person with the disorder may feel like one or more 発言する／表明するs are in their 長，率いる and have gaps in memory of events, 含むing 外傷／ショック.?

Scary: AnnaLynne 以前 spoke about how her 乱用 led to her having?dissociative 身元 disorder?

Candid: The 星／主役にする 公然と 明らかにする／漏らすd her diagnosis on in a YouTube ビデオ she filmed with brain disorder specialist Dr. Daniel Amen?

She 株d her diagnosis in?a YouTube ビデオ that was 地位，任命するd by?brain disorder specialist Dr. Daniel Amen.?

She said she is now 診察するing how the 性の 乱用 she 苦しむd may have led to her dissociative 身元 disorder.?

She discussed her memory loss, explaining that she doesn't remember anything about her life before the age of five, and after that, she can only remember several '出来事/事件s' of 乱用, recollections that were 誘発する／引き起こすd by her 強姦 at age 18.?

'I don't have anything until around five, and then from five to 11. I recount 出来事/事件s throughout,' she said, 公式文書，認めるing that she also has gaps in her memory after age 11.??

'And then when I was 13, I have a 選び出す／独身d-out memory that was just one thing, that I don't have a sense of anything else at that time.'

The actress, who received her DID diagnosis before 会合 with Dr. Amen, 明らかにする／漏らすd that her doctor told her she 苦しむd from it 'pretty 本気で,' and that she likely had '最終的な 分裂（する）s' 事前の to her memory returning.?

Although she can now identify she had a 分裂（する） personality from the age of 13, she can look 支援する on her childhood 行為 and see 証拠 of the disorder at an earlier age, before her memories （機の）カム 支援する.?

'Before my memories （機の）カム 支援する, I had 最終的な 分裂（する）s. In my history, you’ll see me, I would just show up with the 黒人／ボイコット wig and a new personality and I was this 堅い little baddie, and then I’d be the bohemian flower child,' she explained.?

Looking 支援する: The 33-year-old actress has also 株d 詳細（に述べる）s of the night a friend 強姦d her in her own bed at age 19

The anti-trafficking 行動主義者 now believes that her disorder also played a part in her work as an actress, explaining that all of her 役割s, in one way or another, were '分裂（する）s' ― 分裂（する） personalities ? although she was not aware of it at the time.??

Dr. Amen explained that he scanned AnnaLynne's brain and the results are 'not like many of the other 多重のs he has seen,' before 尋問 whether the actress has ever been given a bipolar diagnosis, which she 確認するd she had.

'In 2017, I 現実に went [to a psychiatrist], knowing for years that I felt like I was [bipolar], considering the fact that I have family history and the symptoms seemed to line up,' she said.?

She 追加するd that she had struggled with symptoms of bipolar disorder for years, but 認める that she 現実に relied on her 'manic' 行為 as a means of pulling herself out of a depressed 明言する／公表する.?

'I would use my manic symptoms to get me out of 不景気, I would 肉親，親類d of manipulate my symptoms,' she explained. 'I knew that if I went on a crazy sex spree, or a shopping spree, or any 肉親，親類d of 高くする，増すd thrill-捜し出すing type things, I could always manipulate myself out of 不景気 so I never really got too stuck.'

However, in 2017, she 'went 負かす／撃墜する a 不景気 spiral' that she could not bring herself out of 'no 事柄 what she did.'

'I tried to go on no-sleeping benders to 活動させる／戦時編成する my mania, I tried sex, spending [sprees], I tried traveling all over the globe the first part of that year but I could not get out of the 不景気.'?

'From my point of 見解（をとる）, [they] deserve an 適切な時期 for redemption,' she said of her abusers (pictured in Las Vegas on June 10)

Referring to AnnaLynne's brain ざっと目を通す, Dr. Amen said that he believes the actress used her 分裂（する） personalities as a means of 'managing' her childhood 性の 外傷／ショック.?

'When you've had 激しい childhood 性の 外傷／ショック, you 分裂（する） as a way to manage it,' he said. 'And the brighter you are, the more you 分裂（する）.'?

He also 示唆するd that the actress may have had an undiagnosed brain 傷害, which could also be an underlying 原因（となる） of her 条件.?

The 星／主役にする, who 公式文書，認めるd that there is a '大規模な spectrum 明白に' of disorder in how it 衝撃s people 戦う／戦いing it, said that her goal is to 転換 the way society 見解（をとる）s people 取引，協定ing with the disorder.

'For me, my heart is to change this narrative around these 行為s that follow 裁判，公判 of the 外傷／ショック, and not 扱う／治療するing someone or 答える／応じるing to someone or 裁判官ing someone from their 活動／戦闘s but asking, "What happened to you? How did we get here?' she said.

Then in July, she spoke to?creative 機関 House of 影響（力）, 株ing a very magnanimous 視野 on the people who sexually 乱用d her as a child and 強姦d her as a 十代の少年少女.

'The truth is, we're not good and we're not bad. Even the person who sexually 乱用d me as a child, and the person who sexually 強襲，強姦d me when I was 19, they're not bad people,' she said,?によれば The Sun.

誘発する／引き起こすing: The actress 解任するd a 誘発する／引き起こすing moment on the show 90210, when her what happened to her in real life happened to her character

'They make bad 決定／判定勝ち（する）s from bad places that they were in at the time.?From my point of 見解（をとる）, [they] deserve an 適切な時期 for redemption,' she 追加するd.

AnnaLynne has managed to find it in her to be 許すing に向かって her abusers にもかかわらず years of 外傷／ショック.?

'I （機の）カム from horrible 乱用. I grew up going through all of these horrible things that… that 原因（となる）d me 絶対の terrible 苦痛,' she said.

She'd 封鎖するd out her childhood 乱用 for years, but it all （機の）カム 注ぐing 支援する in when she was 強姦d at 19.?

AnnaLynne first 株d story in essay for Cosmopolitan in 2014, 解任するing how a man in her friend group whom she had considered a friend needed a place to sleep for the night, so she 招待するd him over.?

'We sat on the bed and talked for a while, then I fell asleep. When I woke up, he was inside me,' she wrote for Cosmo.

'At first, I felt so disoriented and numb, I の近くにd my 注目する，もくろむs and pretended to be asleep,' she went on. 'I wondered if I had done something to give him the wrong idea. I felt afraid of making him angry. Believe it or not, I didn't want to 感情を害する／違反する him. I just 手配中の，お尋ね者 it to be over.'

Finally, when she worked up the 神経 to tell him to stop, 'He stopped and went in the bathroom and finished.'?

'I did nothing, I laid there until 5:00 AM, until the sun started to peek through, and I could feasibly, in my mind, explain that I got up 早期に,' she said.

'I wrote a 公式文書，認める like I suddenly had to go to a 会合 at 5:00 AM. It wasn't really making any 論理（学）の sense, but I had to get out of my own house.

'I sat in my 乗り物 負かす／撃墜する the street hidden by a bush, waiting to see his car leave and then I went 支援する to my place and にわか雨d and tried to pretend like that had never happened.?

AnnaLynne said she didn't 認める what had happened until ten months later, when a 相互の friend 推測するd that she was in love with the man who 強姦d her ― and she 訂正する him.?

'I was like, "No, he… Yeah, no he 強姦d me,"' she said.

A couple of years later, AnnaLynne was on 90210, where no one knew about her history. But coincidentally, the script featured a storyline in which her character?was 強姦d by her English teacher. After, she, too, was （刑事）被告 of 存在 in love with him.?

'The showrunner literally 令状s my story in the script of 90210 without knowing it, unfortunately, because it is so ありふれた,' she said.?

'It was as if I got thrown 支援する to when I was 19 in this moment with my friend, and this whole thing happened. I went into hysterics, just my whole 団体／死体 was wrapped with 涙／ほころびs.'

The 星／主役にする 公式文書，認めるd that it's a prime example that 'you never know what someone's 戦う／戦い is, you never know what someone's going through.'