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This is the agonising moment Joe Tracini struggled to answer even a simple question 予定 to his 戦う／戦い with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD).?
The Hollyoaks 星／主役にする, 35, best known for playing Dennis Savage in the soap, is hoping to raise 認識／意識性 for the 条件 in new Channel 4 文書の?Me And?The 発言する／表明する?In My 長，率いる.?
BPD 厳しく 影響する／感情s how a person thinks and feels about themselves and other people, 主要な to 激しい, 安定性のない emotions, chronic insecurity and intrusive thoughts.
Joe was 診断するd with BPD ten years ago, and it's a 条件 around two per cent of the country will live with at some point.?
In the 文書の, which 空気／公表するd on Monday night, Joe showed just how much BPD 衝撃s his daily life when he couldn't answer a straightforward question from the camera 乗組員, which 結局 resulted in him breaking 負かす／撃墜する in 涙／ほころびs.?
This is the agonising moment Hollyoaks 星／主役にする Joe Tracini struggled to answer a simple question 予定 to his 戦う／戦い with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)
The 生産者s asked Joe, who is also a comedian: 'What would you say is your funniest ビデオ?'
But the actor was visibly struggling as he couldn't form the words of a 返答, 結局 just 説: 'Oh my god.'
He explained to テレビ視聴者s in the voiceover:?'反して a normal person would just answer that very simple question, my BPD means that, more often that not, I can't.
'BPD 厳しく 影響する／感情s how a person thinks and feels about themselves and other people. It often leads to 激しい, 安定性のない emotions, chronic insecurity and intrusive thoughts.?
'権利 now I'm thinking everything from f*** what if the cheese has gone off to how much better my family would be if I just died.'
Still not able to communicate his 返答, Joe broke 負かす／撃墜する in 涙／ほころびs in 失望／欲求不満.?
He told the camera 乗組員: 'It feels utterly mental. This is mental. I want to be able to talk to you.?
'I want to be able t o see here and show you all the things I've done. You're here because I asked you to come. I'm やめる 明確に mental because this is not normal.
Joe broke 負かす／撃墜する in 涙／ほころびs at his 失望／欲求不満 as he struggled to form a 返答
Joe is 調査するing his BPD diagnosis for Channel 4's Me And The 発言する／表明する Inside My 長，率いる
Joe appears in the 文書の と一緒に another image of himself, who he calls 'Mick' and who 代表するs the 発言する／表明する inside his 長，率いる
Joe's father is I'm A Celebrity 勝利者 and comedian Joe Pasquale, who 認める he felt '非難する' over Joe's struggles
'I've never known why I have BPD. I do know that it's 血まみれの hard to live with. This is the worst I've felt, now.'?
In the 文書の, produced by Hungry 耐える, Joe introduces the テレビ視聴者 to Mick, the 発言する／表明する inside his 長，率いる who wants to 絶えず 傷つける him.
Whenever Joe is having a good day or feeling more 肯定的な, 'Mick' begins to shout intrusive thoughts at him that leave him unable to carry on.?
BPD has 原因（となる）d him to struggle with 中毒 and panic attacks that have ended his stand-up comedy career. He 自白するd that he has tried to kill himself six times and suicidal thoughts are a 正規の／正選手 occurrence for him.?
'I live with something called Borderline Personality Disorder and one of the symptoms of that in me is that I think about 殺人，大当り myself a lot,' he explains in the show.?
After going to Edinburgh to 会合，会う Kate, a professor of 臨床の psychology, Joe is advised to 調査する his childhood as a means to start therapy.??
While the exact 原因（となる） of BPD is 不明瞭な, it is thought to result from a combination of genetic and 環境の factors. Those with the 条件 一般的に experienced some form of neglect or 外傷／ショック as a child.?
Joe is the son of I'm A Celebrity 勝利者 and comedian Joe Pasquale, who appeared in the 文書の to 収容する／認める he was 'absent' for a lot of his son's childhood 予定 to work and now feels he is at least partly to '非難する'.?
After leaving Hollyoaks, Joe hoped to form a career as a comedian (pictured: one of his comedy ビデオs) - but his BPD and panic attacks have 妨げるd it from becoming a reality
Mr Pasquale 認める he had been absent for a lot of Joe's childhood 予定 to work
Joe appeared on Hollyoaks (pictured) as Dennis Savage from 2011 to 2014
As a child, Joe spent much of his time alone trying to learn how to be a magician. But he fell out of love with it at the age of 16 and 'filled the gap' by doing 麻薬s.?
'As soon as I finished 麻薬s, I started drinking,' he 追加するd.?
Now 11 years sober, the 文書の also 調査するs Joe's first 試みる／企てる to 成し遂げる on 行う／開催する／段階 again after a panic attack meant he'd 以前 had to call off a show five minutes before it began.?
In a tremendously 勇敢な move, Joe manages to 成し遂げる his one-man show in Norwich Playhouse to raise 認識／意識性 for BPD in 前線 of 300 people.?
In other parts of the 文書の, Joe speaks to his family, loved ones and 専門家s in BPD, ーするために 伸び（る） more understanding into his 条件, and try to make his life more liveable ? though Mick is never far away.
Joe was supported by a psychologist through making the film and will continue to receive support に引き続いて the show's 伝達／伝染.
He has 以前 opened up about his mental health in his 調書をとる／予約する, Ten Things I Hate About Me.??
Joe Tracini: Me And The 発言する／表明する Inside My 長，率いる is on Channel 4 now.?
If you have been 影響する／感情d by this story, you can call the Samaritans on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org.?
