Lifestyle vlogger 詳細（に述べる）s her three-year 戦う／戦い with eating disorders and 収容する／認めるs she used to binge drink until she was sick - so she would be thin enough to model

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A food and fitness vlogger is coming out for the first time about the eating disorder that 荒廃させるd her life for three years and 原因（となる）d her to throw up 血.?

Cami Petyn 明らかにする／漏らすs in an emotional?YouTube ビデオ that she became anorexic and bulimic in high school and got to the point where she was binging on food and alcohol and 粛清するing every 選び出す／独身 day.

'I would 軍隊 myself to drink [alcohol] until I puked. It was my goal to puke every 選び出す／独身 time I drank,' says Cami, who 地位，任命する ビデオs under the username?最高の 白人指導者べったりの東洋人.

Emotional: Cami Petyn, who vlogs under the 指名する 最高の 白人指導者べったりの東洋人, is coming out for the first time about her past eating disorder in a powerful YouTube ビデオ

Cami, who is now healthy and leads a vegan lifestyle, 明らかにする／漏らすs that she had not told a '選び出す／独身 person' about her eating disorder until she uploaded the ビデオ on October 1.

In the clip, which has already earned more than 96,000 見解（をとる）s, the lifestyle vlogger says she kept her illn ess a secret because: 'I was afraid of people wanting me to get better and afraid of 伸び（る）ing 負わせる.'

But now, Cami is coming out about her dark past ーするために raise 認識／意識性 about how 'f*****g awful eating disorders are' and 勧める young people never to 実験 with anorexia or bulimia.

The millennial 明らかにする／漏らすs that she was always very thin growing up, and that modelling scouts would approach her when she was out with her parents.

She thought becoming a high fashion model was her 'dream', and her parents took her to get 大臣の地位 発射s as a child.

When she was sick: Cami, who is now vegan and vlogs about her healthy lifestyle, says she dreamed of 存在 a model - until she 伸び（る）d 負わせる sophomore year in high school

Looking 支援する: Cami says she was planning to send the above 発射 to a modelling 機関, but thought she looked '大規模な' in the photo

Breaking 負かす／撃墜する: The vlogger says she never told anyone about her anorexia and bulimia because she was 脅すd they would try to make her 伸び（る） 負わせる

Changes: The millennial (left, as a 十代の少年少女) says she was always thin and was 絶えず approached by modelling scouts. When she began 伸び（る）ing 負わせる after going through puberty, she was 荒廃させるd

Then, when she was a sophomore in high school, Cami suddenly began 伸び（る）ing 負わせる - as many 十代の少年少女 girls do when they go through puberty.??

'I panicked, and starting 実験ing with different diets,' 株 the vlogger, who says she began to feel 'horrible' about herself when she couldn't lose 負わせる.?

One night, she made herself throw up after dinner, which made her feel better about herself.?

'I started doing it once or twice a week, then got I （麻薬）常用者d,' Cami says,?explaining: 'I felt like I had a guy in my?長，率いる 絶えず telling me how I hideous I was.'

She goes on to 株: 'It 進歩d into hating myself and wanting to destroy myself... I was puking every 選び出す／独身 day, いつかs a few times a day.'

Cami その上の 明らかにする／漏らすs that she would 餓死する herself all day at school, and then come home and binge for hours - even if she didn't like the food

餓死するing herself: Cami says she would break up sticks of gum into fourths because the two calories in one stick were 'too much'

Still struggling: Cami is healthy now, but she 収容する／認めるs she still 取引，協定s with 団体／死体 insecurity and that she wants to lose 負わせる

Dark period: The vlogger says she would 軍隊 herself to drink until she threw up so that she could feel skinny. She would also binge on food that she didn't even like and then make herself puke

Calling her disorder '有毒な' and 'depressing', she says she would break up sticks of gum into fourths because the two calories in a 十分な stick were 'too much;.?

Soon, things spiraled ever more out of 支配（する）／統制する, and she began to drink ひどく so that she would throw up.??

'Eating disorders are just as （麻薬）常用者ing as cigarettes or ヘロイン,' Cami says, 追加するing that at many times, she wished she were 'dead' so that she didn't have to go on living like she was.

She then lost her ability to taste food or drink, which is just one of the many 破滅的な 影響s of bulimia.?

Cami also could no longer feel 十分な from eating because she had destroyed her stomach.

After one year of 十分な-blown anorexia and bulimia, she tried to stop, but spent the next two years of her high school career relapsing.?

Speaking out: Cami 明らかにする／漏らすs that she lost ability to taste and feel 十分な because she had destroyed her stomach after three years of 存在 anorexic and bulimic

Today: While she is committed to living healthily, Cami still 取引，協定s with insecurities. She is 現在／一般に on the Raw Till Four diet, which consists of eating raw foods until 4pm every day

Better: Cami says that her eating disorders '消えるd' when she 設立する veganism. Above, she's seen eating vegetarian sushi in an 最近の Instagram 発射

燃料: Today, Cami 定期的に 文書s her healthy meals on her Instagram account?

< span style="font-size: 14.3999996185303px;">Finally, she 設立する veganism, and began doing the diet Raw Till Four - where one eats only raw foods until four pm every day - and she says she eating disorder '消えるd'.?

The comments section under the clip was flooded with 発言／述べるs from people who had 表明するd 類似の eating disorders, 賞賛するing her for 株ing her story.?

In a previous ビデオ 地位，任命するd to her YouTube channel in September, Cami 明らかにする／漏らすs that she still struggles with 団体／死体 insecurity.

'I've been really 負かす／撃墜する about my 負わせる... My self-esteem has really 急落するd', she says in the clip, after 明らかにする／漏らすing that Raw Till Four isn't working 同様に for her as it used to.

'I'm 絶えず thinking about my 負わせる and how I look,' she 株, 追加するing: 'I've just been eating too much.'

However, Cami 会談 confidently about her vegan lifestyle, and says she is committed to staying healthy.?