'There are many, many times when I want to give up on life... the past five years have been a s*** 嵐／襲撃する': Andy Cole opens up on his mental health struggles while living on his own in lockdown as Manchester 部隊d legend 戦う／戦いs 腎臓 病気

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Andy Cole has opened up on his 戦う／戦い 対処するing with 腎臓 病気, which he 収容する／認めるs has led to him 苦しむing with mental health 問題／発行するs まっただ中に the coronavirus?pandemic.

Cole 苦しむd a 腎臓 失敗 in 2014, which 要求するd him to have a 移植（する） three years later.

Since then the former Manchester 部隊d?and England striker, who played a 重要な part in the Red Devils' Treble-winning 味方する in 1999, 収容する／認めるs he has 設立する life 極端に 堅い.

His 条件 means he is considered 極端に 攻撃を受けやすい to the 影響s of Covid-19, which has 軍隊d him to take extra 警戒s against catching the ウイルス and 保護物，者ing himself from all other people.

That, 同様に as the day-to-day struggles with his illness, have taken a big （死傷者）数.??

Andy Cole has 認める that the coronavirus has made it tougher to 戦う／戦い his 腎臓 病気

Cole was a prolific scorer for Manchester 部隊d, netting 121 times between 1995 and 2002

That, 同様に as the day-to-day struggles with his illness, have taken a big （死傷者）数.?

'There are many, many times when I want to give up, period, not just on life but give up on everything,' Cole told the 後見人. 'It becomes so difficult.

'I was struggling last Wednesday. It 全く （機の）カム out of the blue and I had to stay in bed. I 譲歩するd 敗北・負かす and 受託するd that today’s not going to be my day. 以前, I would fight. But, 最終的に, I know I can’t （警官の）巡回区域，受持ち区域 it. The pa st five years have been a s*** 嵐／襲撃する.'

事前の to the coronavirus 突発／発生, Cole??was working as an attacking coach at Sol Campbell's Southend 部隊d 味方する.

Yet since the lockdown the 48-year-old has 明言する／公表するd that trying to live with his 条件 has proven incredibly difficult without the ability to socialise.

Cole has been living on his own for the past two years and says that 存在 housebound and unable to visit friends has not been getting any easier as the lockdown continues.

'It’s really hard and, day by day, it’s getting harder,' he 追加するd. 'Once you have this 病気 you want to get out, 演習 and be around people. When you’re 限定するd to a small space and you have to stay indoors and you can’t socialise, it’s really 堅い. I’ve been living on my own the past two years.

'I used to find it really 慰安ing to go see someone for a 雑談（する）. It got me out of the house. Yes, we can have as many Zoom calls as we like but it’s not the same as 存在 out, speaking to people, having a laugh.'

Since a 腎臓 移植（する） in 2017, Cole has 認める to 苦しむing from mental health problems

He was a part of 部隊d's historic Treble-winning 味方する in 1999 and here 解除するs the European Cup

Cole?received a new 腎臓 from his 甥, Alexander Palmer, in April 2017 after 落ちるing 本気で ill after 契約ing a ウイルス on 2015 trip to Vietnam.

Doctors discovered that his 腎臓 機能（する）／行事 had 減ずるd to just seven per cent of usual capacity and that his life was in danger if he didn't receive a 移植（する）.?

He has 以前 認める to having 'suicidal thoughts' and 不景気. 'They understand it more than most, but I've 押し進めるd my family to the brink,' he said in a 2 018 interview.

Cole also 明らかにする／漏らすd how he 要求するs copious 医薬 each day to stop his 団体／死体 拒絶するing the 'foreign 反対する' that is the 寄付するd 腎臓.?

Cole 得点する／非難する／２０s a 決定的な goal that helped 調印（する） the 首相 League 肩書を与える on the final day in 1999

The striker also went on to 勝利，勝つ 15 caps for England during a?distinguished playing career

Cole enjoyed a 高度に distinguished playing career 最高潮の場面d by winning the 首相 League, FA Cup and 支持する／優勝者s League in the space of 10 days in May 1999 with 部隊d, who he joined for a British 記録，記録的な／記録する 料金 of £7million from Newcastle in 1995.

With 部隊d he 得点する／非難する／２０d 121 goals in all 競争s, winning an 付加 four league 肩書を与えるs and another FA Cup before joining Blackburn Rovers in 2001 and winning the League Cup a year later.

同様に as 存在 capped 15 times by England between 1995 and 2001 he is also the third 最高の，を越す 首相 League goal scorer in history with 187 strikes, a 一致する only bettered by Alan Shearer and Wayne Rooney.?

He has also been an 外交官／大使 for 部隊d in 最近の times. His strike 共同 with Dwight Yorke was one of the 重要な factors in 部隊d's historic Treble-winning season.?

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