'I still feel for that one that I lost': Shay Mitchell chokes up over traumatic miscarriage in the first episode of her YouTube series Almost Ready

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She's 推定する／予想するing a baby girl with boyfriend Matte Babel.

Actress Shay Mitchell is 招待するing fans in to 証言，証人／目撃する the good and the bad in her new pregnancy 旅行 with a YouTube 初めのs series 肩書を与えるd Almost Ready.

In the first episode which dropped Wednesday, the Pretty Little Liars 星／主役にする broke 負かす／撃墜する in 涙／ほころびs while 解任するing her traumatic first pregnancy that ended in miscarriage.??

悲劇の:?Shay Mitchell?broke 負かす／撃墜する in 涙／ほころびs while 解任するing her traumatic first pregnancy that ended in miscarriage in the first episode which YouTube 初めのs series 肩書を与えるd Almost Ready, which dropped Wednesday

'Matt and I started 静かに dating about three years ago,' the 32-year-old explains as the episode opens. 'I guess you could say we're best friends now.'?

Episode one follows the beauty in the days and weeks 主要な up to her surprising pregnancy 告示 in June when she was about six months along.

'I chose to 持つ／拘留する on until I 発表するd because of the first time,' Mitchell says. 'It didn't go as I had hoped for, and it was 極端に difficult.'

In January, Mitchell took to social マスコミ to 明らかにする／漏らす the sad news that she had 苦しむd a miscarriage.

開始 up:?Episode one follows the beauty in the days and weeks 主要な up to her surprising pregnancy 告示 in June when she was about six months along

'I chose to 持つ／拘留する on until I 発表するd because of the first time,' Mitchell says. 'It didn't go as I had hoped for, and it was 極端に difficult.'

Sad news: In January, Mitchell took to social マスコミ to 明らかにする／漏らす the sad news that she had 苦しむd a miscarriage

She opened up about the experience and the 過程 brought her to 涙／ほころびs in the ビデオ.?

'The first time that I was 妊娠している last year, Matte and I hadn't been planning' she reveled. 'It happened and we were really excited about it.'

Shay continued: 'I was like 14 weeks, at that point, I had no idea the 百分率 of miscarriages. When it happened I was just, 完全に blindsided by it.'

The actress explained that she has kept ultrasound photos and ビデオs of her visits to the doctor from the first pregnancy.

'But, it's not like I forgot about that happening, so of course I'm like 最高の happy, but I still feel for that one that I lost.'

Big 明らかにする／漏らす: The couple 延期するd the public 告示 that Shay was 妊娠している until she was very far along

Matt and I started 静かに dating about three years ago,' the 32-year-old explains as the episode opens. 'I guess you could say we're best friends now.'

'It's weird because, I 港／避難所't looked at them, 明白に,'? the 星／主役にする says through 涙／ほころびs.?

'But, it's not like I forgot about that happening, so of course I'm like 最高の happy, but I still feel for that one that I lost.'

With her 現在の pregnancy, Shay and Matte are 存在 a bit more 用心深い with how they're planning for the baby.

The couple was thrilled when they first 設立する out they were 妊娠している, showing ビデオs of dinners and FaceTime conversations with family to 株 the good news in the episode.

Slow and 安定した:?With her 現在の pregnancy, Shay and Matte are 存在 a bit more 用心深い with how they're planning for the baby

'I had to feel comfortable before I told the world,' the You 星／主役にする said.

'I had to feel comfortable before I told the world,' the You 星／主役にする said.

The 星／主役にする took cameras into a guest room in her home that will become the baby's room when she is born.

'I just wanna wait it out,' Shay explained.?

She was seemingly a bit superstitious about turning the room into a nursery too soon.?

存在 攻撃を受けやすい: Shay said that when she miscarried she felt broken as a woman

Baby's room:?She was seemingly a bit superstitious about turning the room into a nursery too soon and wants to wait to decorate?

The beauty said she considers herself fortunate to have only 苦しむd one miscarriage, knowing many women who've fared worse.

'You feel broken as a woman and that is not a 広大な／多数の／重要な feeling,' Shay says.

The ビデオ followed the couple through the beginning of their pregnancy and the actress broke 負かす／撃墜する into 涙／ほころびs at a second point when she was feeling 罠にかける since she had yet to 発表する the pregnancy to the public.

'This is the s****y 味方する of 存在 妊娠している when no one knows.' the 星／主役にする said while crying in her car. 'I don't feel mys elf'??

'This is the s****y 味方する of 存在 妊娠している when no one knows.' the 星／主役にする said while crying in her car. 'I don't feel myself'

Becoming parents:?While Shay seems ready to embrace motherhood in the ビデオ, Matte appeared not to be on the same page yet, whining about not 存在 able to …に出席する a Spotify BBQ because the expectant mother didn't want to do

Oh no! Matte also 行方不明になるd an important ultra sound to go to a basketball game and forgot to call Shay?

While Shay seems ready to embrace motherhood in the ビデオ, Matte appeared not to be on the same page yet, whining about not 存在 able to …に出席する a Spotify BBQ because the expectant mother didn't want to do.??

She later needled him for skipping their '構造上の ultrasound' because he was …に出席するing a basketball game and then not even remembering to call her.

Shay 認める that she feels Matte still 'has no idea' about what lies ahead but once the baby is born, he will be a '広大な／多数の／重要な dad.'??

In the 未来:?Shay 認める that she feels Matte still 'has no idea' about what lies ahead but once the baby is born, he will be a '広大な／多数の／重要な dad'

支援する to normal:?Once Shay and Matte let the cat out of the 捕らえる、獲得する about the baby, the stunner has been 支援する to her old self again and 活発に 株ing bump 発射s on social マスコミ

Once Shay and Matte let the cat out of the 捕らえる、獲得する about the baby, the stunner has been 支援する to her old self again.

Her growing baby bump is prominently featured on her social マスコミ page, with several bikini 発射s of her 最近の babymoon to Europe.

Making sure she stays real, Shay is also 株ing the not so fun 面s of the 過程, like her 最高の swollen feet after a day 狙撃 in heels.?

Yikes! Shay also recently 株d a snap of one of the downsides to pregnancy, swollen feet