'I'm 溺死するing': New York City ER doctor who killed herself at 高さ of coronavirus 危機 told friends she felt she 'couldn't help anyone' and was 'embarrassed' when she 苦しむd a 決裂／故障

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A New York City ER doctor who killed herself at the 高さ of the coronavirus 危機 told friends she felt she 'couldn't help anyone' and was 'embarrassed' when she 苦しむd a 決裂／故障 because of mental health stigma in the 医療の community.

Dr. Lorna M. Breen, 49, the 医療の director of the 緊急 department at New York-Presbyterian Allen Hospital, committed 自殺 in Charlottesville, Virginia on April 26.

Her 悲劇の death （機の）カム just weeks after she 回復するd from coronavirus and days after she was 発射する／解雇するd from a psychiatric 区 に引き続いて a mental health episode.

Breen's 荒廃させるd family, friends and 同僚s spoke out about her shock 自殺 to the New York Times?and told how they believe it was 誘発する／引き起こすd by her traumatic work in a Manhattan hospital during the pandemic.?

They say the talented doctor should be 含むd in America's coronavirus death （死傷者）数 because she was 間接に killed by the 影響s of the 突発／発生.??

Dr. Lorna M. Breen, 49, (pictured) the 医療の director of the 緊急 department at New York-Presbyterian Allen Hospital, committed 自殺 in Charlottesville, Virginia on April 26?

Anna Ochoa, 45, said her friend felt helpless because of the number of people whose lives she could not save from the ウイルス.

A staggering 18,667 people have so far been killed by coronavirus in New York City, with daily deaths topping 800 at its 頂点（に達する） in April when the city's hospitals were buckling under the 負わせる of the 危機.?

'I couldn't help anyone. I couldn't do anything. I just 手配中の，お尋ね者 to help people, and I couldn't do anything,' Ochoa said Breen told her in their last conversation before she died.?

Ochoa told the Times she can't stop thinking about her friend's final words to her which she kept 説 on repeat in a phone call days before her death.?

Several other friends said they noticed a 激烈な 転換 in Breen's 見通し as the 突発／発生 ramped up in the ウイルス 震源地.?

The New York City ER doctor (中心) who killed herself at the 高さ of the coronavirus 危機 told friends she felt she 'couldn't help anyone' and was 'embarrassed' when she 苦しむd a 決裂／故障 because of mental health stigma in the 医療の community

Breen 中心 with her siblings 含むing sister Jennifer Feist on left. Breen's 悲劇の death （機の）カム just weeks after she 回復するd from coronavirus and days after she was 発射する／解雇するd from a psychiatric 区 に引き続いて a mental health episode

'People I work with are so 混乱させるd by all of the mixed messages and 絶えず changing 指示／教授／教育s,' she wrote to her Bible 熟考する／考慮する group on March 14.?

'Would 高く評価する／（相場などが）上がる any 祈りs for safety, 知恵 and 信用.'?

On March 18, Breen started showing symptoms of coronavirus and had to 検疫 at home.?

She returned on April 1 as the 突発／発生 was at breaking point in the city.?

'I'm 全く lost,' Breen wrote to a 同僚 at the time.?

'Just baffled and 圧倒するd,' she told another.?

In the 'Allen', 団体／死体s of COVID-19 犠牲者s were piling up in the X-ray room as the hospital ran out of space and, in one 特に shocking 出来事/事件, a man was 設立する dead and his 肌 turned blue in a 議長，司会を務める while waiting to be moved to a different 区.?

Breen's 同僚s say she was working gruelling 15-hour 転換s 監督するing the 緊急 department where people were dying all around.?

The usually 上昇傾向 doctor told one friend it was the 'hardest time of my life' while she told others she was '溺死するing 権利 now'.?

Breen's 荒廃させるd family, friends and 同僚s spoke out about her shock 自殺 to the New York Times and told how they believe it was 誘発する／引き起こすd by her traumatic work on the frontline of the pandemic. Pictured the 'Allen' hospital in NYC where she worked

欧州通貨制度 労働者s wheel a 患者 to a New York hospital in May.?A staggering 18,667 people have so far been killed by coronavirus in New York City, with daily deaths topping 800 at its 頂点（に達する） in April when the city's hospitals were buckling under the 負わせる of the 危機

Breen's sister Jennifer Feist, who she spoke to almost every day, 解任するd how her sister called her on April 9 sounding distant and telling her she couldn't get up.?

'I don't know what to do. I can't get out of the 議長，司会を務める,' Breen told her.?

Dr. Angela M. Mills, her 監督者, visited her and Breen told her she 手配中の，お尋ね者 to 傷つける herself.

Breen checked in to the University of Virginia 医療の 中心 psychiatric 区, by which point Feist said her sister was in a 近づく-catatonic 明言する／公表する, unable to answer simple questions.?

Breen's family told the Times she had no history of mental illness 事前の to the pandemic.?

Breen's family say the talented doctor (pictured) should be 含むd in America's coronavirus death （死傷者）数 because she was 間接に killed by the 影響s of the 突発／発生

Former 同僚s also said that - pre-COVID times - Breen was always a 静めるing 影響（力） の中で the 大混乱 of working in an 緊急 department.????

'You'd come into a 転換 in the morning, and the E.R. could be in 大混乱,' said Dr. Gino A. Farina, who was the director of the 緊急 薬／医学 residency program at Long Island ユダヤ人の 医療の 中心 when Breen had a residency there.?

'Everybody looked exhausted, their hair was a mess, and they looked like they were destroyed. And she looked like she was ready to start a 転換.'

Doctors at 'the Allen', which Breen joined in 2004, told 類似の accounts of her 押し進めるing 居住（者）s to consider all?possible 診断するs and different methods.??

'She had something that was a little bit different and that was this 楽観主義 that her 執拗な 成果／努力s will save lives,' her 同僚 and friend Dr. Barbara Lock told the Times.????

Her sister told the Times Breen, on leaving hospital, became 'embarrassed' for 苦しむing a 決裂／故障 during the pandemic.?

She said her sister 恐れるd her career was over because of long-running 態度s toward mental health in the 医療の community.

'Lorna kept 説, 'I think everybody knows I'm struggling,' said Feis t said.?

'She was so embarrassed.'?

Feist slammed the 'culture' of the 医療の community and called for change.?

'If the culture had been different, that thought would have never even occurred to her, which is why I need to change the culture,' Feist said.?

'We need to change it. Like, as of today.'?

Breen's untimely death has 誘発するd 関心s over the （死傷者）数 the pandemic has taken on 医療の professionals 戦う／戦いing the ウイルス on the frontline.

Several 熟考する／考慮するs have 設立する healthcare 労働者s have experienced higher 率s of 不景気, 苦悩, insomnia, and 苦しめる after 扱う／治療するing COVID-19 患者s.??

NewYork-Presbyterian said it began 申し込む／申し出ing mental health services to its 前線-line staff in late March to help them 対処する with the pandemic.??

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