Brittney Griner 明らかにする／漏らすs she thought about 殺人，大当り herself 多重の times while she was rotting in a hellhole ロシアの 刑務所，拘置所

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Brittney Griner has 明らかにする／漏らすd she considered taking her own life 多重の times when 拘留するd in a ロシアの 刑務所，拘置所 に引き続いて her 2022 逮捕（する）.

She was 解放する／自由なd in a 1-for-1 交換（する） with ロシアの 武器 売買業者 Viktor 一区切り／（ボクシングなどの）試合 in December 2022 that has since been 非難するd for its 失敗 to return Paul Whelan, a US 海洋 拘留するd on スパイ 告発（する），告訴（する）／料金s in 2018.

However, before she could be 解放（する）d, Griner considered taking her own life with the 条件s in the ロシアの penal 植民地 leaving her feeling 'いっそう少なく than human', she 明らかにする／漏らすd to ABC's to?コマドリ Roberts.?

'I 手配中の，お尋ね者 to take my life more than once in those first weeks,' she said in the sit-負かす／撃墜する interview on 20/20: 囚人 of Russia Wednesday night. 'I felt like leaving here so 不正に.'

Brittney Griner 明らかにする／漏らすd she considered taking her own life 多重の times in ロシアの 刑務所，拘置所

The WNBA superstar sat 負かす／撃墜する with ABC's コマドリ Roberts in??20/20: 囚人 of Russia

Griner was 逮捕（する）d at an airport in Moscow and 手渡すd a nine-year 刑務所，拘置所 宣告，判決?

The 条件s in Griner's ロシアの penal 植民地 were so bad she felt 'いっそう少なく than human'?

The basketball player 設立する a 'big-a** knife' left lying in her 独房 when she first entered

'I didn't think I could get through what I needed to get through. I definitely thought about it,' she 追加するd about considering 自殺.

'But then, I was just like, what if they didn't 解放（する） my 団体／死体 to my family? And I was like, I can't put them through that. I have to 耐える this.'

Griner's thoughts of 自殺 （機の）カム in the town of Yavas in Mordovia ? a 地域 known for its 刑務所，拘置所 （軍の）野営地，陣営s.

The basketball superstar 詳細（に述べる）d the shocking 条件s she had to 耐える, 含むing finding a 'big-a** knife' left lying in her 独房 when she first entered.?

'When we walk into the 独房, there's a bathroom. There's a little rinkity 沈む that 漏れるs and then just 追加する a 層 of dust, dirt, grime, 血 stains. Just filth,' she said.?

'I had a couple of shirts, a couple of pairs of sweats, the shoes on my feet,' she continued. 'One of my shirts, I ripped it up and I used one to clean myself. I used one as my 洗面所 paper. With my dirty, dirty 穴を開ける in the ground with feces all over it.?

'That was the moment where I just felt the dirtiest and, like, いっそう少なく than a human.'?

Griner also 明らかにする／漏らすd that the pitiful food the 囚人s were given to eat 含むd 固く結び付ける-like porridge and little pieces of fish 'with nothing but bones in it'.?

The 水銀柱，温度計 退役軍人 said the filthy 条件s in her 独房 made her feel 'いっそう少なく than human'

The basketball superstar 詳細（に述べる）d the shocking 条件s, 含むing finding a 'big-a** knife'

The 中心 and her partner, Cherelle (権利), at the 2023 Met 祝祭 in New York?

However, the worst experiences （機の）カム when the 囚人s were 許すd time outside she explained.?

'You're supposed to have 15 minutes outside,' she said. '15 minutes いつかs is two hours. It's a blizzard. It's 冷淡な. It's winter. You're getting snowed on.?

'And those days were the toughest because it's like, "Yo, come get us." We're yelling. We're 叫び声をあげるing. We're 動揺させるing the 妨げる／法廷，弁護士業s, get us in the house, get us in.'?

Griner 自白するd to 格闘するing with the 犯罪 of feeling like she had let 負かす／撃墜する her family, 含むing her police officer father, and '（名声などを）汚すing' the Griner 指名する - something which she is still 戦う／戦いing with today.?

'I don't think I've really gotten through all the way,' she 認める. 'That I didn't let 負かす／撃墜する everybody and my family. I think I'm still trying to get through that part.'

'I try to give myself grace,' she continued. 'Everybody says give yourself grace. It's so hard for me to do that. At the end of the day, it's my fault. And I let everybody 負かす／撃墜する.'

Griner had been 逮捕（する）d at an airport in Moscow, with ロシアの 当局 （人命などを）奪う，主張するing she was caught entering the country with vape cartridges 含む／封じ込めるing cannabis oil, which is 違法な in Russia.

'My whole heart just fell out of my 団体／死体. Just this overpowering feeling of like an elevator dropped from underneath my feet. I'm just like, my life is over 権利 here.

'In the 中央 of them going through my 捕らえる、獲得するs, there's two cartridges. And I'm just like, "oh, my god, how did I make this mis take?"?

'How was absentminded and made this 抱擁する mistake? I could just visualize everything I worked so hard for just 崩壊するing and going away.'?

The 6-foot-9 basketball 星／主役にする enters a Moscow 法廷，裁判所 for her 審理，公聴会 in August 2022?

V iktor 一区切り／（ボクシングなどの）試合, referred to by some as the 'Merchant of Death,' was 逮捕（する）d for テロ行為 in 2008

Griner's wife, Cherelle, speaks at the White House in 前線 of Joe Biden in December 2022

Griner 自白するd to 格闘するing with the 犯罪 of feeling like she had let her family 負かす／撃墜する?

The 中心, had played in Russia for seven years during the WNBA offseason to 供給する a greater living for her family with her salary in the American league five times いっそう少なく than what she made overseas.

But Griner, who said she didn't want to travel to Russia on the day, 非難するd her 'mental lapse' of leaving the cannabis cartilages in her 捕らえる、獲得する on panicked packing.

'I did not want to go but I could just hear my dad and what he instilled in me - you finish what you start,' she told Roberts.?

'I was late getting up,' she went on. 'I'm never late getting up. [I] Finally got up. [I'm]Literally running around the house. I'm 強調する／ストレスing. I go into straight panic 方式.'?

Griner was put in a 拘留，拘置 中心 近づく Moscow until November of that year, when she was moved to an 公表されていない 刑務所，拘置所.?

The basketball 星／主役にする was then taken?to a penal 植民地 in Mordovia, a ロシアの 地域 概略で 300 miles southeast of Moscow, to serve her nine-year 宣告，判決 on 麻薬 告発（する），告訴（する）／料金s.

結局, in December 2022, the?6-foot-9 WNBA 支持する／優勝者 and two-time Olympic gold メダル受領者 was?was 解放する／自由なd in a 囚人 交流 for 武器 売買業者 Viktor 一区切り／（ボクシングなどの）試合.

Griner recently re-調印するd with the 不死鳥／絶品 水銀柱，温度計 - her only WNBA team - ahead of this year’s Olympics in Paris.?

But this summer will also see the 33-year-old welcome her first child with Cherelle.?

Griner and her partner Cherelle 明らかにする／漏らすd last month that they are 推定する／予想するing a baby

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'We’re いっそう少なく than three months away from 会合 our favorite human 存在,' Cherelle 明らかにする／漏らすd

Griner and Cherelle, who first got engaged in 2018, 発表するd that they are 推定する／予想するing their first baby together.?

'Can’t believe we’re いっそう少なく than three months away from 会合 our favorite human 存在,' Cherelle Griner wrote on Instagram?last month.?

She 地位，任命するd a photograph of her and Brittney 持つ／拘留するing 手渡すs 同様に as ざっと目を通すs of the baby, と一緒に the hashtags '#BabyGrinerComingSoon' and '#July2024'.

Griner 以前 had twins with her ex-wife and?fellow WNBA player Glory Johnson in 2015 but they 離婚d just a year later.?

For support call Samaritans on 116123 in the UK or visit www.samaritans.org, or the 自殺 & 危機 Lifeline on 988 in the US.?