Christine McGuinness heartbreakingly 収容する／認めるs she '（機の）カム の近くに' to taking her own life on 'many occasions' during a 'really low period' in her late teens
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Christine McGuinness has 明らかにする／漏らすd she （機の）カム の近くに to taking her own life on many occasions in her adolescence as she made a shock 自白 on Monday.
The model, 36, opened up about the 'really, really low time' in her life to former Made In Chelsea 星／主役にする Spencer Matthews on his Big Fish podcast.?
Christine, who was 診断するd with autism in 2021, said the 厳しい 外傷／ショック she experience because she wasn't 診断するd when she was younger really 影響する／感情d her.
The 星／主役にする 認める she would 'pray that she wouldn't wake up' every morning and when she did 試みる／企てる to take her life her brother or sister would 'interrupt' her.?
She said: 'My late teens was where it was really, really difficult. I had years of just thoughts, just passing thoughts, you know "I just don't want to wake up any more".
Christine McGuinness has 明らかにする／漏らすd she （機の）カム の近くに to 殺人，大当り herself on many occasions in her adolescence as she made a shock 自殺 自白 on Monday
The model, 36, opened up about the 'really, really low time' in her life to former Made In Chelsea 星／主役にする Spencer Matthews on his Big Fish podcast
'I'd pray every night that I wouldn't wake up in the morning.'
Asked if she'd ever considered how she would end her life, she said: 'I thought about it a lot, I thought about it an awful lot.
'There were times when I took every tablet. My mum had a cupboard with all the 薬／医学 in.
'And I didn't 肉体的に take them, but I would take them out of the cupboard and take them up to my bedroom and think 'Ok, I'm just going to do this tonight, I'm just going to get it over and done with'.
'And it was like something would always happen. Whether it would be my brother shouting at me to go and help him on his Xbox or my sister asking what outfit she should wear.
'It felt like someone would always interrupt me or 乱す me.
'It was a really, really low time. It's not something that I'm 完全に ok with, that I even thought like that, because that would have been 絶対 破滅的な for my mum.'
Last week, Christine?明らかにする／漏らすd she has finally started taking?ADHD 医薬 almost four years after she was 診断するd with the 条件.? ?
The 星／主役にする 認める she would 'pray that she wouldn't wake up' every morning and when she did 試みる／企てる to take her life her brother or sister would 'interrupt' her
She said: 'My late teens was where it was really, really difficult. I had years of just thoughts, you know "I just don't want to wake up any more" I'd pray every night that I wouldn't wake up in the morning'
'I would think 'I'm just going to do this tonight, I'm just going to get it over and done with'. And it was like something would always happen. Whether it would be my brother shouting at me or my sister asking what outfit she should wear. It felt like someone would always interrupt me'
The TV personality, who also 苦しむs from autism, said she realised she needed help three months ago, に引き続いて her 分裂（する） from husband 米，稲, 50.
The couple, who 株 nine ye ar-old twins Leo and Penelope, and six year-old Felicity, who also have autism, 発表するd their seperation in July 2022 after 11-years of marriage.??
After putting off taking the 医薬 for years, Christine told The Mirror: '結局 I just thought, '承認する, I'll try just a low dose and see what it does, see if it helps me'. And it has'.
'It's helped 静める my mind. I'm still active, still able to do everything I could before, just better. My 長，率いる's not switching to different topics all the time. I used to struggle to 持つ／拘留する a conversation because I'd be having 10 others in the 支援する of my mind'.
Before 追加するing: 'I think I needed it now because my life is unsettled. And when things 静める 負かす／撃墜する, hopefully I won't need it as much.'?
Christine was 診断するd with autism and ADHD in 2020?after spending the 大多数 of her life 混乱させるd as to why she 行為／法令／行動するd 異なって from everyone else growing up.?
In January she told MailOnline how she had?more 炉心溶融s than ev er before and was ready to show her authentic self after hiding behind a smile.
説 how she had been struggling and 認める that it is 'exhausting pretending to be 罰金 and?that she still has days when she needs to 取り消す 計画（する）s because she is so burnt out.
For support call Samaritans on 116123 or visit www.samaritans.org.?
Last week, Christine 明らかにする／漏らすd she has finally started taking ADHD 医薬 almost four years after she was 診断するd with the 条件?
The TV personality, who also 苦しむs from autism, said she realised she needed help three months ago, に引き続いて her 分裂（する） from husband 米，稲, 50 (pictured together in 2018)
