Billie Eilish 解任するs having an existential 危機 on her 20th birthday: 'I looked around the room and every 選び出す／独身 person was an 従業員 of 地雷'
Billie Eilish 明らかにする／漏らすd that she 苦しむd?an existential 危機 on her 20th birthday after realizing all her friends were on her payroll.?
While looking 支援する on the 祝賀, the 22-year-old superstar, who has racked up billions of streams 世界的な and nine Grammy?Awards in the past three years, told Rolling 石／投石する that she spiraled after looking 'around the room' and realizing 'every 選び出す／独身 person' was one of her 従業員s.
'I was like, 'Oh, shit, I literally don't have friends. I don't have people that see me as an equal. I don't have people that aren't afraid of me,'' she remembered thinking.?
At the time, she also explained songs about friendship, like?the Beatles' With a Little Help From My Friends and Lily Allen's Smile, made her feel sick to her stomach.
Billie Eilish 明らかにする／漏らすd that she 苦しむd an existential 危機 on her 20th birthday after realizing all her friends were on her payroll (seen on her 22st birthday in 2023)
At the time, she made no 指示，表示する物 that she was in 苦しめる as she 示すd the occasion by 株ing a photo of a?candy 茎 birthday cake and a bounce house.?
Around this time,?Eilish said her pal Zo? Kravitz, 35, would often ask her to hang out, but she would never follow through on making 計画（する）s.
'I remember her 存在 like, 'Why won't you hang out with me?' the singer said. 'And I was like, 'Because when you get to know me, you're going to know me, and that's so terrifying to me, because then I'm not just, like, this person you think is 冷静な／正味の. And what if you don't like me?''
At the time, the Bad Guy hitmaker said she was 'obsessed with the idea of 存在 an anomaly' and portraying 'this Billie Eilish character.'
'Anyway, I have since thrown away that idea, and been hanging out with people. If they get to know me, that's 承認する. That's good,' she said.?
'We're both 下落するs, so I 全く understand the flightiness because I can be 肉親，親類d of 類似の,' Kravitz said. 'I think I probably just told her to shut up and get over it. And we've been really good friends ever since. It's 現実に the opposite of what she said: The more I get to know her, she gets better and better.'?
Kravitz also shed light on how there's no way for other people, out of the スポットライト, to understand?'the feeling of, everyone's 星／主役にするing at you' out in public all the time.
'You have to do this thing where you either 認める it and wave like you're the 大統領，／社長, or you have to pretend you don't know everyone's 星／主役にするing at you,' the actress told the 出口. '[It's] energetically draining.'
While looking 支援する on the 祝賀, the 22-year-old superstar, who has racked up billions of streams 世界的な and nine Grammy awards in the past three years, told Rolling 石／投石する that she spiraled after looking 'around the room' and realizing 'every 選び出す／独身 person' was one of her 従業員s?
On her 20th birthday, she made no 指示，表示する物 that she was in 苦しめる as she 示すd the occasion by 株ing a photo of a candy 茎 birthday cake and a bounce house?
She continued: 'A lot of artists go through the space where you're just like, 'I just would rather stay inside. I look like shit today, so I don't want to go out and go on a walk, even though it's pretty outside.' Those little moments get taken away from you.'?
Not going outside, for?Eilish, was a 決定／判定勝ち（する） she made to remain an?enigma.?
'That used to be a thing I would 努力する／競う for,' she 認める. 'I used to be so obsessed with this mysteriousness, and I thi nk that's 100 パーセント why I didn't make any friends, because I didn't want anyone to know me, because I 手配中の，お尋ね者 everyone to think of me as this mysterious, 冷静な／正味の person.'
She 追加するd: 'I loved the idea of people feeling that way, but then I thought, 'Oh, here I am sitting alone in my room, loving the feeling that everybody thinks I'm really 冷静な／正味の, but I'm not 現実に getting anything out of that. I'm not enjoying anything in my life at all.'?
Eilish went on to explain people still find it surprising when they see her at places like?Chipotle.?
After the 従業員s asked if she had a 私的な chef,?Eilish said she didn't have anyone that cooked for her and thinks 'Chipotle is 解雇する／砲火／射撃.'
Around this time, Eilish said her pal Zo? Kravitz, 35, would often ask her to hang out, but she would never follow through on making 計画（する）s as she 恐れる ed the actress wouldn't think she was '冷静な／正味の' in person; pictured together in 2022
'Can’t we make a 取調べ／厳しく尋問するd cheese or something by ourselves?' she mused.
She went on to 宣言する that vacations are a 'scam' and that while she owns an electric Porsche, she doesn't have a driver.?
As for the 'bougiest' thing she has, the singer replied: 'Money.'?
Eilish, who recently got 支援する into dancing and at the gym for her mental health, said she 攻撃する，衝突する a turning point after realizing she hadn't 'had fun in seven years.'
The Gen Z superstar?also spoke about using sex and self-楽しみ to decompress.
'I 基本的に talk about sex any time I かもしれない can. That’s literally my favorite topic. My experience as a woman has been that it’s seen in such a weird way. People are so uncomfortable talking about it, and weirded out when women are very comfortable in their sexuality and communicative in it,' she said.?
The Ocean 注目する，もくろむs crooner continued: 'I think it’s such a frowned-upon thing to talk about, and I think that should change. You asked me what I do to decompress? That shit can really, really save you いつかs, just 説. Can’t recommend it more, to be real.'?
The Gen Z superstar also spoke about using sex and self-楽しみ to d ecompress (seen in 2024)
Eilish also raved about how masturbating in 前線 of a mirror has helped her form a 'raw, 深い 関係' to herself and 団体／死体 that she's never had in the past.
'I got to say, looking at yourself in the mirror and thinking ‘I look really good 権利 now’ is so helpful,' she explained. 'You can 製造（する） the 状況／情勢 you’re in to make sure you look good. You can make the light 最高の 薄暗い, you can be in a 明確な／細部 outfit or in a 明確な／細部 position that’s more flattering.'
The Oscar 勝利者 公式文書，認めるd that she's learned that looking at herself and watching herself 'feel 楽しみ has been an extreme help in loving' and 受託するing herself 同様に as 'feeling 権力を与えるd and comfortable.'
'People should be jerking it, man. I can’t 強調する／ストレス it enough, as somebody with extreme 団体／死体 問題／発行するs and dysmorphia that I’ve had my entire life,' she told readers. 'I should have a Ph.D. in masturbation.'
While discussing her sexuality and feeling 軍隊d to come out as queer during a red carpet interview last year, the performer 明らかにする／漏らすd she's 'been in love with girls' her 'whole life.'
'I just didn’t understand ― until, last year, I realized I 手配中の，お尋ね者 my 直面する in a vagina. I was never planning on talking about my sexuality ever, in a million years. It’s really 失望させるing to me that it （機の）カム up,' she 認める.
While speaking about her 近づいている 跡をつける, Lunch, 奮起させるd by her queer 身元, Eilish explained that she 'wrote some of it before even doing anything with a girl' and 'the 残り／休憩（する） after.'
The chorus of the raunchy 跡をつける goes: 'I could eat that girl for lunch / Yeah, she dances on my tongue / Tastes like she might be the one / And I can never get enough / I could buy you so much stuff / It’s a craving, not a 鎮圧する.'
Eilish raved about how masturbating in 前線 of a mirror has helped her form a 'raw, 深い 関係' to herself and 団体／死体 that she's never had in the past (seen in 2022)
In December, the musician said that she thought her queer 身元 was 'obvious' during Variety's Hitmakers event.
'I 肉親，親類d of thought, wasn't it obvious? I didn't realize people didn't know,' she said, at the time. 'I just don't really believe in it. I'm just like, why can't we just 存在する? I've been doing this for a long time, and I just didn't talk about it.'
When asked about how she felt regarding the opinions of other women, she 明言する／公表するd: 'I'm still 脅すd of them, but I think they're pretty!'
During her older interview with Variety, Eilish spoke about having a 長年の 問題／発行する where she was not able to connect with other women.
Eilish has been romantically connected to several individuals over the years, 含むing The Neighbourhood's 足緒 Rutherford (seen with the singer in 2022) and rapper Brandon Adams, who 成し遂げるs under the 指名する 7:AMP
'I've never really felt like I could relate to girls very 井戸／弁護士席. I love them so much. I love them as people. I'm attracted to them as people. I'm attracted to them for real,' she said.
The What Was I Made For singer (a)手の込んだ／(v)詳述するd on her earlier 声明 and 表明するd: 'I have 深い 関係s with women in my life, the friends in my life, the family in my life. I'm 肉体的に attracted to them.
However, she 追加するd: I'm also so 脅迫してさせるd by them and their beauty and their presence.'
Eilish has been romantically connected to several individuals over the years, 含むing rapper Brandon Adams, who 成し遂げるs under the 指名する 7:AMP, and?The Neighbourhood's 足緒 Rutherford.
