Chynna Phillips, 55, discusses her 'insecurities' and 収容する／認めるs she いつかs feels like the 'Pillsbury Doughboy' - as she dishes on her marriage problems with Billy Baldwin after 自白するing that her love of Jesus 原因（となる）d a divide between them

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Chynna Phillips has opened up about the 'insecurities' that she has developed over her 団体／死体 as she ages and 認める that she いつかs feels like the 'Pillsbury Doughboy.'?

The 55-year-old singer 地位，任命するd an 極端に candid ビデオ to her 約束-based YouTube channel,?California Preachin', over the 週末, during which she spoke out about some of the '問題／発行するs' she has been struggling with recently.

The 星／主役にする, who is the daughter of Mamas & the Papas 禁止（する）d members John and Michelle Phillips, dished on everything from the 巨大な '苦悩' she feels over the way she looks to the '力／強力にする struggle' she has 直面するd in her 関係.

She explained that?her?newfound love of Jesus had 原因（となる）d a major divide between her and husband Billy Baldwin, 60,?after she 変えるd to Christianity.

Chynna Phillips has opened up about the 'insecurities' that she has developed over her 団体／死体 as she ages, admitting that she いつかs feels like the 'Pillsbury Doughboy'

The singer, 55, also spoke about?her marriage problems with husband Billy Baldwin, explaining how her newfound love of Jesus has 原因（となる）d a major divide between them

In the ビデオ, する権利を与えるd 開始 Up About My 私的な Life, Chynna explained that she hopes to 'let go' of the '憤慨, grief, 怒り／怒る, 失望／欲求不満, hopelessness, and exhaustion' that she's been feeling recently as we kick off the new year.?

She 述べるd it as a 'gigantic, painful, 圧倒的な, and terrible 重荷（を負わせる）' that she's been 'carrying around for too long.'

But she said she is 決定するd to leave her problems in 2023, and 公約するd that she has made a 'かかわり合い to God' to 'feel like herself again' after 'so many years of feeling really lost.'

'This life was not meant to be spent in 憤慨, 怒り／怒る, and bitterness,' she said. 'I never thought I would become this person that would be 持つ／拘留するing on to 怒り／怒る, 憤慨, bitterness but I have to tell you that I did become that person and I am not proud to 収容する／認める that but it's true.

'It's not fun to carry that stuff around, it gives me 支援する 苦痛, it makes me cranky, it makes me resentful, and it makes me depressed.

'It makes me feel 圧倒するd and uninspired and I'm sick of feeling that way to be honest with you.'?

The 55-year-old explained that one of the main things that has been 'troubling her' and 'making her feel anxious' is the way she looks.?

'There's a lot of insecurity in my life, a lot of vanity 問題／発行するs,' she continued. 'I look in the?mirror and I see things that I didn't see before - wrinkles, 捕らえる、獲得するs [under my 注目する，もくろむs], dark circles, sunkeness, 肌 損失, sun 損失.?

She discussed some of the '問題／発行するs' she has been struggling with in an 極端に honest ビデオ to her 約束-based YouTube channel, California Preachin', over the 週末

She said: 'I look in the mirror and I see things that I didn't see before - wrinkles, 捕らえる、獲得するs [under my 注目する，もくろむs], dark circles, 肌 損失, sun 損失. I'm feeling insecure about my 贈呈'

'And I'm feeling insecure about my 贈呈. It's 肉親，親類d of silly and I feel really embarrassed 株ing this stuff when there's so many greater 問題／発行するs going on in the world but I'm here to be honest.?

'I feel a little ragged and I don't feel that youthful or energized [lately]. I feel like gravity is taking its （死傷者）数 on me.'

The mom-of-three explained that when she looks at other 星／主役にするs 類似の in age to her - like former supermodel Paulina Porizkova, who is three years older than her - she feels like she's not '高齢化 as gracefully.'

Chynna 追加するd that 存在 told 'all her life' that she's 'so pretty' has resulted in her 'putting' a 抱擁する 'value' on her 外見.

'You start to think, "Uh oh. What am I going to do, how am I going to define myself, and will I be of value to the world if I don't have that anymore?"' she dished.

'明白に, there's other things in my life that I'm talented at,?but letting go of the looks thing and?the 青年 is hard.'

She continued: 'Then there's of course the whole 団体／死体 image stuff. You look at your butt or you look at your tummy or you look at your 武器 and you're like, "Oh my gosh, they're like chicken breasts."?

'Or you look at your stomach and you're 押し進めるing on it and it's like, "Oh my gosh it feels like Doughboy." But hey, I'm 55, I'm doing my best. I'm trying my best here.'?

Chynna also spoke out about her '損失d' romance with Billy, who she 結婚する in 1995.

'I've been with Billy for 32 years and we have an awesome marriage but we definitely had the hardest couple years of our marriage these past couple of years, it has been a real struggle,' she 認める.?

'I think it's because I just took the 深い dive into Jesus and I think?he didn't やめる know what to do with that because it was 肉親，親類d of all?Jesus all the time.

'We?sort of?had a 力／強力にする struggle. The Bible says that [wives] are supposed to 服従させる／提出する and [men] are the 長，率いる and?that's all true, but it also says that the man is?supposed to 扱う／治療する the wife like the church and all of that so I think that I?was just struggling with that.'

Chynna (seen 構成 解放する／自由な left) said that when she looks at other 星／主役にするs like former supermodel Paulina Porizkova (seen 構成 解放する／自由な 権利), she feels like she's not '高齢化 as gracefully'

Chynna (seen with her husband) said it felt like they had a '力／強力にする struggle' after she 変えるd to Christianity

Chynna said that she and Billy also feel like they have very little in ありふれた lately.

'いつかs he's like, "You're not into the things that I'm into. You're not into politics, you're not into 格闘するing, you're not into the philanthropy things that I do,"' she 認める.

'We did a couple of?things together and that was amazing and very 実行するing but we've never?really 設立する that one thing that the two of us can latch on to and do together as?a team and so I'm praying in 2024 that we're going to find t hat one thing that?the two of us can do together that feels really 実行するing.

'I am not 23 years old anymore, I met him when I was 23 and I'm changing. I'm growing, you know??

'I'm not the same person I was 30 years ago and I 辞退する to have the same marriage that we had 30 years ago. It's time for us to 円熟した and grow.'

The musician said she and the actor 'separated for six months,' but she didn't 明示する when the break occurred.?

Chynna also spoke about her 'mental health 問題／発行するs' during the YouTube ビデオ, and she 認める that she is 苦しむing from '不景気' which has lead to a '欠如（する） of enthusiasm for life' recently.

'I lost myself along the way over these past five years and?there's just been this numbness and this dullness in my life,' she said.?

'I'm sad?admitting that but it really is true. I want to really be?straight with you guys about that because it's something that I never saw?coming.?

'I really was blindsided by it and I never 心配するd that I would feel this numb and uninspired and?just sort of lackluster about life.?

'I used to wake up in the morning and?just be like, "Oh my gosh a day I get to create. I'm going to do this or that, I'm going to see this person."?

'I 港／避難所't had that in a really long time, where I wake up just celebrating life.?I am feeling a numbness in my life that is scary.

'It's just this feeling of 存在 beaten 負かす／撃墜する, there's a hopelessness that I've been experiencing.'

Chynna said that she and Billy also feel like they have very little in ありふれた lately, 追加するing, 'We've never 設立する that one thing that the two of us can latch on to and do together as a team'

Chynna 追加するd that にもかかわらず her struggles, she now feels like she is '現れるing out of that place of her life.'

'I have to 信用 that?God had a 計画（する） for it the whole entire time it wasn't for nothing,' she 追加するd.

'People who 苦しむ the most make the greatest comforters and so?perhaps God 手配中の，お尋ね者 me to walk through these 裁判，公判s and this 解雇する／砲火／射撃 so that?I would be able to sit here and talk about it and show you that I've come through.?

'I'm not 正確に／まさに on the other 味方する of it [yet], I wouldn't say that per se, but I will say that I'm feeling?傷をいやす／和解させるd, I'm feeling excited about life again, I'm feeling 希望に満ちた, I'm?feeling 生き返らせるd and refreshed.'

She reminded テレビ視聴者s that people may 'look perfectly 罰金 on the outside' but can 内密に be struggling - so she said it is important to 'be more bold?when it comes to asking friends' if they are okay and 'doing mental wellness checks' on your loved ones.

Chynna also encouraged those who are in 苦痛 to be open with their family members about what they're feeling.

'いつかs we sort of 減らす how much 苦痛 we're in and how much we're 苦しむing because it makes us feel too?exposed to tell other people what's really going on,' she 明言する／公表するd.

'Or いつかs it's just?hard to articulate what we're 現実に feeling. There's sort of?this 混乱 around our despair that we can't やめる pinpoint so?it feels 圧倒的な and almost ridiculous to try and 株 it with somebody because we don't really even?understand it ourselves.

'But I pray you will 捜し出す people in your life that you can be 残酷に honest with, because if you're in 静かな despair and 苦しむing in silence, it's not serving you.'

Chynna said she used to feel like a 巨大（な） 'ball of wires that she had to untangle' - but explained that just admitting that she was 'struggling' changed everything.?

'That in and of itself is very powerful. To be able to?communicate th at to other people, that in and of itself is a very?important piece of the puzzle,' she 結論するd.

'Just 存在 able to say that is a very important piece, so I encourage you all to just tell people, "I'm struggling."?

'You have to be able to articulate that before you can really do the 深い?dive and start to untangle the ball of cables or wires.

'You aren't alone and God has a 計画（する） for your life. He's going to turn your ashes into beauty.'?