Chynna Phillips has laid 明らかにする the horrifying 性の 強襲，強姦 that she 耐えるd as a teen - （人命などを）奪う，主張するing she was 強姦d by a man who then 'drugged' her and 'held her 人質' for days.
The former musician, 56, broke 負かす／撃墜する in 涙／ほころびs as she spoke out about the 出来事/事件 in a recently resurfaced ビデオ?that was 初めは?株d to her 約束-based?YouTube?channel 支援する in 2020, 同様に as the 破滅的な 'stain' that it left on her life.
In it, the born-again Christian - who has been 極端に open about her past 戦う／戦い with 実体 乱用 - （人命などを）奪う，主張するd that the 申し立てられた／疑わしい 乱用 occurred on her 18th birthday.
The mother-of-three explained that she started the night off partying と一緒に her closest friends in Los Angeles - but what she thought would be a fun-filled 祝賀 最終的に ended in 荒廃 after she separated from her pals to try to buy some コカイン, and was '強姦d' by the 麻薬 売買業者.
Chynna Phillips has laid 明らかにする the horrifying 性の 強襲，強姦 that she 耐えるd as a teen - （人命などを）奪う，主張するing she was 強姦d by a man who then 'drugged' her and 'held her 人質' for days
The former musician, 56, broke 負かす／撃墜する in 涙／ほころびs as she spoke out about the 出来事/事件 in a recently resurfaced ビデオ that was 初めは 株d to her 約束-based YouTube channel 支援する in 2020
In it, the born-again Christian (seen with her mom in 1987, at age 19) （人命などを）奪う，主張するd that the 申し立てられた／疑わしい 乱用 occurred on her 18th birthday after she went to visit a male friend to try to buy コカイン
Chynna 認める in the ビデオ that she drank an 巨大な 量 of 'straight vodka' during the birthday bash, before she 長，率いるd to a male friend's house to try to buy 麻薬s.
'It's really shameful and embarrassing to 収容する／認める, but I really 手配中の，お尋ね者 to do コカイン that night. I was 決定するd to get my 手渡すs on some コカイン,' she told her テレビ視聴者s.?
The 星／主役にする did not 株 the man's real 指名する for privacy 推論する／理由s, but used the 偽の moniker Doug throughout the ビデオ.
Upon arriving at Doug's house, she explained that he told her that she 'didn't look 井戸／弁護士席 and needed to lay 負かす／撃墜する.'
Chynna said she agreed that she 'didn't feel 井戸／弁護士席' and 'passed out' in his bed - but awoke some time later to Doug getting on 最高の，を越す of her.?
'Suddenly the door swung open and Doug walked in. I opened my 注目する，もくろむs and all I could see was that he was taking his belt off and he was pulling his pants 負かす／撃墜する,' she continued.?
'I was 混乱させるd, I didn't know what was happening and I couldn't speak. I w as so drunk that I could not speak.?
'Doug proceeded to 強姦 me, and I could not get a word out. I kept 説 in my mind, "Chynna, tell him to get off of you," but nothing was coming out of my mouth.?
She said she passed out at the man, who she referred to as Doug's home but awoke to find him 'taking his belt off and pulling his pants 負かす／撃墜する.' She 株d: 'Doug proceeded to 強姦 me'
Chynna 以前 明らかにする／漏らすd that she turned to 麻薬s and alcohol as a teen to 'put a 包帯 on her emotions' after 存在 'abandoned' by her （麻薬）常用者 father John Phillips (seen in 1991)?
'So I just waited for it to be over. Then he put his pants 支援する up and put the 一面に覆う／毛布s 支援する over me and I just passed out again.'
Chynna said that when she woke up the next morning, Doug brought her breakfast, and that she now believes he put 麻薬s in the meal.?
'I felt drugged... I just felt really out of it that whole day,' she explained. 'I think that Doug had been drugging me.'
She said she spent the entire 週末 at his house, and was 'out of it' the whole time.?
'I felt like I had been held 人質 there that whole 週末. I don't even know how I got home,' she 解任するd.
'I just remember putting on my pajamas [after I got home], getting under my covers in my bedroom, and crying and crying and crying.'
Chynna said she didn't talk to anyone about what had happened because at the time, she felt 'stupid, dumb, and foolish' for 許すing herself to be in that 状況／情勢 - but looking 支援する now, she knows she was 'taken advantage of.'
She 述べるd the 出来事/事件 as a 'blemish' and 'stain' on her life, and 認める that she was still having a hard time letting go of what had happened.
'We are seen without stain of blemish in God's 注目する，もくろむs, but that doesn't mean that いつかs I don't feel stained, you know?' she said as she started to break 負かす／撃墜する in 涙／ほころびs.?
'I?definitely still feel stained in many ways. Those things that God has 除去するd from us, it's like we want to carry them around for some 推論する／理由.
'But I don't want to carry this around anymore. It's gone, it's forgotten.?I'm just trying to remind myself of that.?
'I 許す myself today. God has already forgiven me but I 許す myself.'
'My 関係 - or 欠如（する） thereof - with my dad, really 衝撃d me as a child. I had a lot of abandonment 問題／発行するs,' she 以前 said. She 's seen as a kid with her mom?
Chynna got sober at age 19. She went on to marry actor Billy Baldwin in 1995, and together, they welcomed three children. She and Billy are seen in 2004?
Chynna, who is the daughter of Mamas & the Papas 禁止（する）d members John and Michelle Phillips, 以前 明らかにする／漏らすd that she turned to 麻薬s and alcohol as a teen to 'put a 包帯 on her emotions' after 存在 'abandoned' by her （麻薬）常用者 father at a young age.
'My 関係 - or 欠如（する） thereof - with my dad, really 衝撃d me as a child. I had a lot of abandonment 問題／発行するs, and I just didn't understand why I couldn't have a father around like some of my other friends did,' she told TV Guide in 2017.
'At the time, everyone was keeping me from the big secret: that my dad had this 麻薬 中毒.
'I felt so 傷つける and scarred on the inside, that I ended up turning to 麻薬s and alcohol as a 十代の少年少女, to put a 包帯 on my emotions. I didn't know how to 取引，協定 and that was just me trying to 対処する.'
Chynna got sober at age 19. She went on to marry actor Billy Baldwin in 1995, and together, they welcomed three children.
In 2022, the 星／主役にする also spoke in 詳細（に述べる） about how her father's 'horrible, horrible 中毒 to 麻薬s and alcohol' marred her childhood in a YouTube ビデオ.
She said her dad was '明白に very troubled and 拷問d,' and 'did some things' and she 'knows he's not proud of.'?
Chynna's half-sister Mackenzie, who is the daughter of John and his first wife, Susan Adams, （人命などを）奪う，主張するd in her 2009 memoir, High On Arrival, that her father had 強姦d her when she was just 19 years old - before engaging in an incestuous 関係 that lasted nearly 10 years.
'My 関係 with my father was so 複雑にするd and so 悲劇の,?I just wish things could have been a whole lot different, but they weren't,' Chynna said.
'My dad was an incredible person, he was a really, really special human 存在, [but] he was 明白に very troubled and 拷問d.
'He had a horrible, horrible 中毒 to 麻薬s and alcohol, and did some things that I'm not proud of and I know he's not proud of to say the least.
'But I have to tell you that he held a very special place in my heart.'
